Dear my father's mistress,
I only know you from the things I hear
from my father and mother and my mom told me never to judge people I don’t know
personally. Actually, she taught me never to judge anyone period.
So, since I learned about my father’s
affair to you, I have been doing my best not to judge you but I can’t feel but
be angry at you. You are destroying our family and for some reason, I feel like
I earn a hall pass to hate you because of that. I don’t know much about
romantic love. My mom told me I am too young to fully understand its concept
but there are thing I know for even at my young age.
I know that if you love someone, you
will do anything and everything you can to not harm that person and the people
that that person loves. Didn’t you know that you were harming my dad when you
decided to have a relationship with him? Why did you put him in that situation?
The first proof of your love for him should have been to walk away, right? I
know because my brother does it all the time with me when I am being a brat.
Instead of fighting with me, he would always walk away and he tells me he does
that because he doesn’t want me to do things or say thing that I will regret. I
think that is love, what you did is not.
You hurt me and you hurt my mom. She
cries every night. You probably don’t care about her. Last night I wished that
you experience the pain she is experiencing right now and your daughter feel
the same pain I am feeling. But I know that is bad and my brother told me to
not let you turn me into that kind of a person, that person who wishes ill on
someone.
I don’t know anymore. I know my family
is not perfect but it was good. I know that because I like my brother and I
know that he is a very kind person. If my family is a bad one, he wouldn’t have
turned out good. I am not perfect and I fail in math twice and I get into
arguments with my friends. I sometimes do things that my parents asked me not
to do but I am not bad. If my family is a bad family, I would have turned out
bad.
I don’t know if my dad will choose us
over you. I hope he does because I still love him. I am angry at him too but I
love him and I don’t want to grow up without him but if he choose you, I hope
to not see you for a long time because I don’t want to be angry anymore. It
makes me very sad, I can’t study, I make my mom sadder, and I can’t play with
my friends.
My mom always told me to look at the
positive side of things and for now the only positive thing I get from this is
the promise I made to never do what you did to us. When the time comes when I
find a boy to like, I will make sure that he is not married.
I love my brother, my mom and dad.
Please don’t hurt our family.
It's Me,
Zincee
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