mai tmhe yaad karti hu...
As you read this you probably do not know what is this for.
On the first time I saw you, I really felt different. That time I
dont know if what Im feeling is somewhat we called "love at first
sight" and we are good after that. Our conversation that lasts for hours
"everyday" and it was really good. We had a great deal with
"getting to know you" thing. You taught me some things that I would
never learn here like the Hindi languange and you know what? i will never
forget those words.
mai bhi tumse bahut pyar karti hu "i really do".. but
this distance is kicking our ass. This is the time that, it doesnt rain but it
pours. I miss you so much that I am starting to hate airports and India
and the ocean and the sky and all these spaces between us. I am jelous of
everything around you there. I envy your books, your laptop, your friends, your
studies, your guitar. How come they are all near to you and Im not? It’s just
too sad. And I hate it.
Mahal I appreciate everything. Your phone calls, your messages,
your time and your patience. It is NOT you who failed. Its Me and Im really
sorry because we are not doing the same things anymore.. We are not having
those phone calls, those messages, those sweet voices telling how much we love
each other and those time that we've share.. Im giving back to you your
freedom. Id like you to have someone better. Someone you can really call yours,
someone who could really care for you, who could be near you and someone who
could give you your needs as a man. Loving is accepting and I would love to
welcome LONELINESS to see you happy. You deserve someone better.
Rahul please don’t ever think of this as being a “you vs. ELLA”
situation because it never has been. You were my first love. For
months I didn’t think anyone could compete, but you made it clear I wasn’t for
you and I was happy to hold on to you as a friend.But everyone needs to be
loved back at some point. I couldn’t wait forever, and hope I will found
someone here who could love me back. I’m sorry if I made you realize I had
buried feelings for you, but we cant claim that we are really for each other when
we're really not.
Im sorry. I hope we could be friends in the future.
mai tumse pyar karti hu mai tmhe yaad karti hu Sunder.
Till here..
Love Forever,
ShantElla Ibarra
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